Temperance: Continue to build your walls

If you could name the thing that God has helped you grow the most in what would it be? Some may say patience because they used to not be able to wait on His timing. Others may say forgiveness because they were not able to let things go for their own good. Me, I would probably say temperance because I used to be a living, breathing fire cracker.

Anyone who knows me knows what I am talking about. There was a time in my life where if you looked at me wrong I tried to turn into a heavyweight boxer, with my words that is.

I would say whatever came to my mind with no filter at all. You would think I was a lawyer trying a case in front of the supreme court because I brought out all of my weapons. There was nothing that could stop me.

Now I'm not gonna lie, it felt good. The essence of saying what I want and not being controlled by others was amazing...for those few moments. Then, the consequences kicked in. The stares started. The relationships disappeared. People stopped wanting to talk…
From our first meeting
 you were there with hands and heart open on one accord,
not caring about others opinions or thoughts
regarding what I should be living for.
With love overflowing like the God that we serve
you helped ease every worry & calm every nerve.
With your smile, your spirit, & your soul honey sweet
you helped me see that no matter what my life in God was complete.
Opening up in various ways you were a sister and a friend
used by God to help me get to where he had for me to begin
With positivity and perspective,
joy and peace,
you encouraged many to trust in the Lord
and live their life in ease.
Even in you're going away
you have made it clear in the end
that we should all live every day like it's our last for Him.
So as you are laid to rest
with joy I decree, you were a tool that
God used to usher me.

May you Rest In Peace


All right, I'm ready to have a heart to heart. A real moment of honesty and truth.  A time where I pulled out some of my hidden feelings,  revealing what crosses my mind when life hands me a, "1, 2".
Now, some may think, "What is there really to show?" "What is there truly to say?" "You have won the good fight and you glow in Christ everyday."
What you don't realize is that divine involves difference  and that's not as easy as it seems. Because when stains are what is normal it feels really lonely to try to stay clean.
I'm not saying I am perfect  or that I don't do wrong.  However I've caught many a side-eye for trying to play "God's song".
From terms like "weird" to "church girl", the comments grew and grew,  starting from the cafeteria all the way to the pews.
It resulted in frustration  and added worry plus despair  because I wondered how God loved me, then allowed this treatment that was so unfair.


For the majority of us, we wish to be able to fulfill our dreams. Whether it is being a famous actor, possibly opening your own business, or maybe even being a pastor, you have something that has been in your mind for your future.

Personally, mine has become writing. It took time for me to shift my dream a bit to match up with God’s plans, but we’ll hit on that next week.

Now, these dreams or desires normally have a strong power. They pull your choice of entertainment, behavior, even where your money is spent. We think about all of these things, but as I've gotten older I have noticed that not as many of us consider how to plan or set-up for it.

You hear about plenty of young boys wanting to be a professional athlete, yet all they play is video games. You may see a good number of women wanting to be singers, but not as many enroll in an arts school. You even witness people wanting to enter politics, but refusing to research those who have truly made a difference.

Basically it'…

Popularity: Who's Opinion Really Matters?

As a believer I have heard and studied the life of Jesus Christ many times. From His birth to His life to even His death, burial, & resurrection I have admired and reverenced his journey. However, there is one part of His walk that I did not look at very closely until recently. Jesus, according to our current human standards, was not everyone’s favorite.

Now, some of you may be looking at the page right now with the side-eye, but I'm just keeping it real. Jesus had those who loved him and honored him, from the disciples to the people that listen to him teach and even those he performed miracles for. However, there are some that were not his biggest fans.

You had Pharisees that did not trust and believe him because he was speaking against their traditions. In Matthew 12:38 they even approached Him saying, “...we want you to show us a miraculous sign to prove your authority.” (NLT) Then they paid a person in His circle to ‘turn Him in’.

All in all, Jesus dealt with many wavering…

Control (He Knows What's Best)

In today's world, we love to have control. We like power over our diets, our houses, our jobs, our social media pages, and the list goes on-and-on. If we have it, we want to RUN IT. The only problem is, that doesn't work with everything.

Some stuff can't be tied down or dictated, namely the people in our lives.

When it comes to the living beings that walk around us we are not in control. From our family members to our coworkers. From our friends to our neighbors, we cannot decide what their next step will be.

Now, this can be hard because being on the outside looking in we feel we know best. In our opinion we have the only solution & the sole answer, however that is not the case.

As it says in Proverbs 3:5, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding." (NLT)

This means you must trust that God knows what is best for them and WHEN it is best for them. That may mean things don't happen as soon as you would like them to, bu…

Grateful (Inspired by "Bigger Than Me"

As I look over the previous year I see many things.
From moments that made me cry to days that made my heart sing.
From valleys to mountains.
From highs to lows.
From smile's that reached from ear to ear to frowns that reached down to my very soul.
I see it all, magnified to the greatest degree,
and...I am thankful that it all came to be.
I am grateful for the great days & the rough nights.
The lowest of lows in the highest of highs.
They all where are necessary for me to make it to where I am.
To walk in my destiny and on my purpose stand.
So, as I embark on this new chapter of what is to be
I am grateful that it is bigger than me.

By: Amber Gardner

Inspired by Bigger Than Me

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