Exclusive Sneak Peek into “Precious Jewel”

Updated: Feb 28

”What did I just do?”

“How did I watch that?”

“What was I thinking?”

These are just a few thoughts that went through my mind as I knelt in front of a toilet, vomiting food and confusion, after watching porn for the first time.

Looking back, I shake my head cause growing up in a Christian home I knew better.

I knew that it involved lust, fornication, adultery, and idolatry, to just name a few.

Unfortunately, I also knew it fed my curiosity.

It helped me see what I felt I’d never experience, seemingly filling a void that had been there for years.

It appeared to be the answer to a problem greater than myself.

So, whether it physically made me sick or spiritually drained my spirit, I didn’t care because what was most important were my feelings, not my Father’s desires.

I was finally putting me first, no matter the cost.

Now some of you may wonder how the bible-toting, tongue-talking, foot-stomping pew baby ended up here.

Well, it all started around 2005, when I was 10 years old...

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