You know, if I had to pick the 2nd strongest battle I had to fight in my spiritual walk it would be my pride.
Anyone who's followed my blog regularly would know that faith/self-esteem would be tied for number one, however pride is a very close runner-up.
Some of you may not believe me because you're wondering, "How can someone who has struggled with their confidence be proud?"
Well, it's very simple. According to the Oxford Dictionaries pride can also be defined as the, "consciousness of one's own dignity". In layman's terms it can also be looked at as one's self-esteem.
So, for someone like me, who at the time struggled with her self-esteem, I would do anything to get it and avoid anything to keep it.
That meant, NO asking people for help. NO admitting that I was in a tight area financially. Definitely NO discussing various parts of my testimony I'd rather keep "hidden".
All of that had to stay on the "hush hush" because as much as God was planning to use my story for His glory I had to be willing to participate.
I couldn't keep worrying just about myself and what people would think. My main concern couldn't be people not wanting to be around me because they felt sorry for me. I had to allow God's will to be done through my testimony.
Now, I'm not saying that you attempt to drain people by creating a "woe is me" tale. I've subconsciously done that & trust me, you'll be alone in no time.
It all comes down to balance. You must know when to lay down your pride and pick up humility.
Allowing others to help you in your time of need is part of God's plan for His children. Lending & accepting a helping hand is part of His way.
Galatians 6:2 clearly states, "Share each other's burdens, and in this way obey the law of Christ." (NLT)
We must move forth together so we can reach what the Father has for us.
So, as little as you may like it & as much as it may feel uncomfortable lay pride aside for humility because at the end of the day no one can survive alone. Trust me. I've tried it.