Over the last couple of blogs I've been discussing things relating to your mind & how it affects the rest of your life. From focusing on the correct things to double checking your values, it all plays a great part in if you will rise up or continue to stay down. Another piece that plays an enormous part in one’s journey is, “confidence in one's own worth or abilities; self-respect,” (Oxford Dictionaries) or self-esteem.
Now I know some may be surprised that the “church lady” is bringing up self-esteem since a lot of people think believers only discuss scriptures & bible studies. However, how you view yourself plays a big part in your walk because doubting yourself will lead you to doubt what God can do through you.
If you look in the Bible, Moses questioned God about leading the Israelites out of Egypt because he had an issue with public speaking. However, God showed him that He had already took care of that & he was a leader in spite of. (See Exodus 4:10-12)
Also, Gideon doubted God called him to defeat the Midianites & had to be reassured that a) it was God and b) he was the right one to be called. (See Judges 6:11-24)
Sometimes we are so tied up in what others have said and what we believe that we are capable of that we forget God knows us better than we even know ourselves. He makes no mistakes & with Him we are capable of anything.
I myself went through this different times. One that sticks out is when I was applying to colleges & universities. Due to some mistakes I had made my intelligence & strength showed in my test scores & resume, but not my GPA. As a result many schools were only able to offer me scholarships on a certain level even though they wanted to offer me more.
That's why I was extremely shocked when I felt God tell me to apply to Hampton University, which is basically the Harvard of Historically Black Colleges & Universities (HBCUs). In my mind I felt that even though He could do anything He wouldn't do it for me. I was caught up in bitterness and doubt, which cultivated in my feeling unworthy of receiving that level of favor from God.
However, I was obedient & due to my sharing my testimony about my mistakes and the lessons I had learned, God was able to turn their hearts to accept me.
Before everything was over I was offered a scholarship from them which covered tuition, room, & board. As a result of that & federal aid, I practically went to school for free, only taking out one student loan for summer courses.
If I had allowed my self-esteem & beliefs to have control I would have missed out on one of the greatest blessings of my life. We have to not allow ourselves to be our own worse enemies. No one else knows the ending to the story of our lives, but God, meaning we should always trust the twists & turns that He has written.
So, lift your head up to the sky, believe that the person who laid your path knows which way to take you, & remember that He makes no mistakes, which means that you are a masterpiece, no matter what anyone says.